Things

I keep telling people that I have a terrible memory. I was thinking, earlier, that this isn't true at all.
I have a very good memory...I guess I just say I don't as a cover up..?...I'm not sure...
I remember almost everything.
My apartment on the west side I lived in when I was little...
Elementary school...
The terrible things I've done...the foolish things I've done.
The stupid things people around me have done.
I remember all of it.
And the biggest problem is that I hold strong grudges.
I find that the people who truly anger me are those whose true nature offends me. There are apologists out there that would tell me to forgive...but how dare you?
People who forgive terrorists-how dare they do that?
People who forgive immorality- how dare they do that?
People who tell me to forgive the people who hurt me-how dare they do that?

I strongly believe that people are who they are and will truly never change....they may seem differrent, but on the inside, not much evolves once one reaches a certain point. I am compassionate, so I will be tolerant of others...I dont want to stick my nose into other people's business. But I absolutely 100% refuse to tolerate offenses that violate morals that I intend to live by.
I am not without fault...but...
I will never forget the things that offend me. I think I've worn the mask of lies for too long, and things have started to undo themselves...
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I almost never do homework at home anymore...
My backpack is fucking disorganized and filled with junk.
I feel lightheaded.
I need to cut my nails.
I played my PSP too much today.
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By the way. One thing I hate so very much, is when people the same age as I am think they can tell me what to do or think, or question my judgment.

To all those people---fuck off. I can't think of a time I've ever directly questioned someone's actions. I only ever state my opinion, if it's opposite to their's, but I never contradict. That's their business...